Blue Lotus has been such a huge part of my heart for over six years now. There have been a lot of false starts, mistakes, losses, recreations, name changes, moves, and everything in between.
The fact of the matter is that creating a heart's desire in the real world is one of the most difficult things I can think of to try and accomplish. I spent so much time envisioning what I wanted to create, that I forgot that details and upkeep are just as important AND as integral as the creative process.
In short I had a river of ideas, and a leaky container to somehow try to contain those ideas.
Over the summer we moved into a better neighborhood…with a yard, and a community, and wooded areas. We have a front porch with a hammock that is just made for sitting and thinking deep thoughts.
The stillness, quiet, and safety have allowed me to ask the hard questions; and to plan Blue Lotus down to the details that I previously had skipped over. The regulations, the inventory, the liscensing; what first seemed an annoyance now seems an integral part of this space I'm creating.
I have found the concept of my hammock fairly interesting lately. I didn’t realize that whenever I sit down I automatically shake out the material, and feel the material between my fingers. I have noticed other members of my family doing the same thing. I spent some time thinking about why we all do this because it seems like an unneeded extra step when the goal is to just sit down.
It turns out I'm checking that hammock for small rips and tears. I am confident that my hammock will hold me up, as long as the threads are still woven together tightly. When I am shaking out the material I am actually looking for small rips, frayed edges, and fabric that has been bleached by the sun.
It is the summation of each of those threads that enables the hammock to hold my body. One thread is not more important than any other. So too are the infinite many details that are required to create. Each check mark on my to do list is a part of the whole, and I never understood the beauty or the importance of these details until I spent a little extra time in my hammock.